Starting Again...

Hi there, it's been a while (insert awkward smile)

It's been a while since my last post and it's not like I didn't know what to write about; I just wasn't sure how to get started.

Last year in October, I published a post titled Progress Over Perfection, where I talked about how I sometimes struggled with posting consistently because of my need for perfection. When I published that post, I thought I had already overcome that struggle, but clearly, I hadn't.

This year, I aimed to become more consistent with my blog, and that hasn't been the case.

I love my blog. I love this platform. I love talking about God and sharing my walk with Him. But at some point, writing started to feel difficult. It felt like my writing depended on my mood and my circumstances, and if I let that dictate my blog, the reality is that there would be no output.

Writing this post is a little difficult because it forces me to confront a reality that I don't always like to admit: change doesn't happen overnight. It comes from building habits and remaining faithful to them over time.

A part of me always feels the need to be overly certain about a topic before I can write about it. I think I fear making mistakes. I fear writing something that isn't quite right or misunderstanding a passage of Scripture and maybe I fear vulnerability too. I share so much about myself in the way I write. The way I write pretty much sounds like the way I talk and it shows my thought process.

Ironically, my fear of making a mistake while sharing the gospel has sometimes stopped me from sharing the gospel altogether, and that is a great disservice.

I was once listening to a sermon where the speaker talked about writing books and spreading the gospel. She mentioned that she used to fear publishing books and later discovering that she had misunderstood the scriptures or made a mistake in her interpretation.

Then she said something that really stayed with me: if that happened, she would simply write another book correcting the mistake.

That's it.

It sounds so simple, but it resonated deeply with me.

As humans, we spend so much time thinking about what could go wrong that we rarely stop to consider what could go right. And honestly, I think that's one of our greatest weaknesses.

The year isn't over yet. There are still six months left. There is still time to write, to be consistent and to grow.

This is a slight deviation from the topic, but two days ago I found myself reflecting on my relationship with God, and it suddenly hit me: my story with Him is the greatest love story ever written.It's a story of unconditional love, acceptance, patience, grace, care, and compassion.

What moves me most is that His love didn't stop at words. He demonstrated it through His actions. As Romans 5:8 reminds us:

"But God demonstrates His own love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."

There is no greater picture of love than that. Thinking about it genuinely makes me emotional.

The truth is, I have so many thoughts about God, His Word, and the lessons He is teaching me. Some of those thoughts are fully formed, and others are still being processed. But I think it's time I start writing them down anyway.

I don't want to only publish "perfectly polished" blogs anymore. I want to share the journey as it unfolds.

So, if you've been wondering where I've been, this is your answer.

And hopefully, it's also the beginning of me showing up here a little more often.