It has been a while since my last post. I've had so much to blog about but it has been hard translating my thoughts into coherent words. I have some posts in my drafts but I can't seem to complete them yet.
One of the reasons why it takes time to complete a post is because...
I just realized that I want to be a perfectionist when it comes to my blog. The desire for perfection actually ends up getting in the way because I often feel like my posts aren't good enough to be posted. The desire for perfection in terms of my blog keeps me stuck and unproductive.
I also think I have placed a lot of pressure on myself when it comes to my blog. When I gave my life to Christ, I made the decision to use my blog as a platform to share the gospel and simply talk about my walk with Him. That decision hasn't been the easiest because I feel like it contributed to the pressure I put on myself (stay with me now). It was easier for me to blog about whatever topic I decided on but once I made the decision to talk about Christ it got difficult.
I believe a part of me was scared to share the gospel because I didn't think I had enough knowledge about the Lord to write about Him. I guess I also felt like it was too soon in my walk with Christ to be writing about Him. I can say that a huge factor of that is a fear of being wrong or only writing about a topic I feel confident or knowledgeable about.
I don't think it's bad to be cautious, but I also think being too cautious also hinders growth. If maybe I'd made a post about a topic that I lacked sound doctrine about then maybe I would have been educated about it. I've realised that I have a fear of doing things outside my comfort zone. To be quite honest, I am scared of doing things I might not be good at simply because I don't want to be embarrassed. That is difficult to admit but it's important to acknowledge. That fear has been a huge roadblock but through the power of the Holy Spirit, it is something I am working on. Getting a different perspective about Peter walking on water was also a huge help in changing my mindset.
Matthew 14:28-31
28 And Peter answered Him and said, "Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water"
29 So He said, "Come." And when Peter had come down out of the boat, he walked on the water to go to Jesus.
30 But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink he cried out, saying, "Lord, save me!"
31 And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and caught him, and said to him, "O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
We have all heard about Peter walking on water and falling when he allowed fear take over. When this text is presented, it's usually to say that Peter should have just trusted in Jesus or to demonstrate lack of faith. When I thought about it, my takeaway was that we focus on the fact that Peter fell in the water but we rarely admire the fact that Peter took a leap of faith. It doesn't matter how it ended but the important thing is that he tried and even though he fell, no one can take away the fact that he walked on water.
It's almost like we focus mostly on the negative (Peter falling) than the positive (Peter walking on water), to my knowledge of scripture, only Jesus and Peter walked on water. So that has been the mindset I have been applying to get myself out of my comfort zone. It doesn't matter what happens in between, the important thing is that I am making an attempt.
That is the same approach I will be taking regarding my blog going forward. It's not about perfection but it's about me using my platform to glorify Him. That's really all that matters.
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This post is so good! What an encouragement! Brilliant!
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