HaileyWrites

N ew beginning - a chance to start afresh or to do things differently.  The reason I stopped blogging is simply because I lost inspiration, my life got hectic and blogging was the last thing on my mind. Apart from that, I just didn't feel like I had anything worth saying. When I began my blog, I made a promise to myself that I would do my best to keep this blog as authentic as possible. That meant only posting when I felt like I had something worth sharing - I didn't want to post for the sake of it. Maintaining authenticity was, and still is, my main priority which is why I took a long break.  As the title says, this is a new beginning. When I first started my blog I stated that I wouldn't stick to a specific theme and would simply share my thoughts and feelings as they came. I have been contemplating resuming my blog for a couple of weeks now and I finally got the revelation on what direction I wanted my blog to take. I realised not sticking to a particular theme also cont...

P erspective - a particular attitude towards or way of regarding something.  I have come to a realisation that perspective influences a lot of things from my mood to my state of mind. How I view things is the delicate line between me feeling motivated or me being on the brink of a mental breakdown. We often face failures in our lives and we usually take those failures as a sign to give up but having perspective enables you to take those failures as motivation to work harder. Truth be told, that is so much easier said than done but like everything else in life, practise makes perfect. Towards the end of last year, nothing in my life was going as planned and that caused me to fall into a deep hole of sadness. I was so ready to give up. One of my biggest flaws, that I am working on, is throwing in the towel too easily. When things dont go my way I am quick to give up, wallow in self pity and go down the "Am I not worthy?'' cruise ship. Buuuut I am proud to announce that, that...

F ea r - an intensely unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain or harm. I recently started reading a book titled, "Welcome Home" by Najwa Zebian and one paragraph deeply resonated with me. It says, "One of the most defeating forms of self oppression - to know you have power, but not to use it. To know you have a voice, but not to speak. To know you are in the wrong place, but stay where you are. To know you have so much potential but not use it. I think its safe to assume that the reason behind these forms of self oppression is simply fear. The paragraph resonated with me because I have a lot of irrational fears that cause me to miss out on a lot of things. After reading the paragraph, I had a playback of all the missed opportunities because I was scared to speak up. At times, I am my own enemy. I often overlook my own potential and succumb to my fears. However, its a new year and that needs to stop! I have been a slave to my fears for many years now, I al...

P urpose - the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists.  Firstly, I just want to clarify that it is purely coincidental that this is my third post with a title that begins with the letter p. One of the many things I have struggled with or still struggle with occasionally is finding my purpose in life. Growing up, I never really knew what career path i wanted to pursue unlike other people. I was always envious of people that knew that one day they would be doctors or lawyers because it gave me the impression that they had their lives all figured out. It made me feel like a leaf in the wind without ambition or purpose. However, my mindset has changed. The truth is, not everyone is meant to be a millionaire or an individual that makes groundbreaking discoveries. Not everyone is meant to cure cancer or have an epiphany on how the universe works, not everyone is meant for fame and riches. The sooner we are able to accept that, the sooner we can live m...

B eauty - a combination of qualities, such as shape, colour, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, especially the sight.  How are we supposed to feel beautiful or handsome when beauty standards are literally shoved down our throats nowadays? Its almost as if we are all supposed to look the same when we were made to stand out and showcase beauty in all its forms.  It is quite mind baffling how at some point, we all felt beautiful up until someone pointed out something on you that made you self conscious. The mere fact that your words could break someones spirit and confidence in a matter of seconds truly highlights the power of the tongue but that is a topic for another day. We all like to pretend as if we are not affected by what people say about us but the truth is, those are the same words that sometimes keep us up at night and we even end up using those same words as weapons against our selves.  Now let me highlight the hypocrisy, the same features that people we...

P atience - the capacity to accept delays or problems without becoming anxious or annoyed. One of the many implications of social media is the unnecessary pressure it exerts on people, mainly the youth. We grow up watching romanticised versions of peoples lives and being envious while the actions that take place behind the curtains are unknown. I spend a majority of my time worrying and stressing about the future. It always feels like I am running out of time, which is insane because to a certain extent, my life is only just beginning. It is undeniable that in its own right, social media is an intergral part of our society but I feel like it reinforces a lot of negativity and deceit but then we still need something to entertain us or else we will lose our minds. The main reason I am always anxious about the future is because I see many of my peers achieving so many things and I sometimes feel left behind. However, I have to take a deep breath and remind myself not to compare myself to ...

P ilot - a stand alone episode of a television series that is used to sell a show to a television network or other distributor. A pilot is created to be a testing ground to gauge whether a series will be succesful but in this case, its my blog. I have always been passionate about writing but I have never publicised it, over the years I have written countless poems that I keep hidden away. This is mostly due to my anxiety and my undeniable fear of failure.  I have finally mustered the courage to get out of my comfort zone and start a blog to share my thoughts and pieces of myself that I keep hidden away. The ultimate goal of this blog is to write about things I go through and to face my fears in hopes of inspiring someone and letting them know that they are not alone.  This is an introductory post and I promise that there is still so much more to come. This is extremely nerve wrecking but I am so proud of myself for taking the first step. I wont restrict myself to one theme or ...